Diary – Six Month Mum

Woo are so smooth

7 January 2024 | Lochie 5.5 years | Jono 4 years “Woo look bootiful mummy,” Jono hopped off the couch to follow me into the laundry and tell me this. What did you say, I asked? I had to repeat and prolong the moment. Jono’s picking up on changes in my makeup and clothes. The other day I put on...

To be loved a goble plex

13 January 2023 | Lochie 4.5 years | Jono 3 years Putting the boys to bed, I was excited that they were suddenly willing, and in position. After a hot day, dinner outside, water play, ice cream, a bath, two obedient heads shampooed (literally a first for me when neither head screamed), the kids were well pooped and ready for...

Hold my hand, Mummy

17 January 2022 | Lochie 3.5 years | Jono 22 months Yesterday I was tired. Poor sleep and the unusually high heat and humidity affected me so much that I felt disassociated, couldn’t recognise my own clothes as mine, and at night was so exhausted that I didn’t want to hear anybody’s voices, I just wanted to be alone. But...

Who are you?

11 January 2022 | Jono 22 months | Lochie 3.5 years Who are you…and what did you do with my little Jono? “I have to wake Jono now, because I love my little Jono,” Lochie mumbled at 6:30am today as he clambered up the stairs, naked except for his sagging overnight nappy. “Lochie, let him sleep, it’s only 6:30 in...

Bandaid nipples

10 January 2022 | Jono 2 years | Lochie 3.5 years Jono… Jono, my little baby. You break my heart. I don’t understand you but I want to, so much, and I cannot wait to meet you as you come out of your prison of knowing what you want but being unable to say it. You are so expressive, your...

I like you

29 October 2021 | Lochie 3 years 2 months | Jono 1 year 7 months Big day, I took the kids to work for Halloween. Lochie and I were skeletons in honour of Fossils by S Sans in Carnival of the Animals. Jono was a mummy. At work the girls put on a big show with spectacular decorations and games...

Happy 3nd birthday

13 August 2021 | 3 years old I am happy. But not as happy as Lochie was today when they sang him the birthday song at childcare. He clasped his hands to his heart and cupped his ears at the hoorays, smiling without shyness or anxiety in front of the choral of toddlers and carers. The video brought tears to...

A good day

8 August 2021 | 3 years | 18 months A good day. Scared to jinx it by putting it into words. Scared almost to interrupt the flow and consistency of bad days. Scared to give myself inadvertent hope that the bad days are done. When really there is no such destination there is only the journey, the day to day...

Poops and oops

15 May 2021 | 2 years 9 months We have been too busy / lazy / scared to start toilet training and missed the window of opportunity while the weather was warm to let Lochie roam in big boy undies and learn cause and effect. Now that Lochie’s comprehension is developing in leaps and bounds, and he is inadvertently teaching...

Three and through

15 March 2021 | 1 year, 2.5 years Tomorrow I return to the office officially. First day of school nerves. It has been 3 years since I mentally left work. Three years is a long time, it is time to re-enter the office officially. Last week Jono started childcare, turned 1, did another 2 days of childcare and had a...

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